Back after a long break

Damn. damn. damn.

Never claim to be smart, it'll only end in tears.

I'm gonna be honest here, I'm not expecting anyone to be reading this....why would you?
I mean, all I am to you is words on a screen, nothing more.
Of course, any one who does read this is gonna be saying "If no one is reading then who the hell are you talking too?"
And; you know what?..........I dunno

I admit, I'm mainly using this thing to vent about my life. In a place where no one knows me, what do I have to lose?
Maybe if Im lucky, someone who feels the same as me in some points will catch it and leave a comment, maybe not.......but whatever

This originally started as a college project, now it really is my blog.

Now that thats all out of the way lets talk about family. Specifically parents.

If you are a teenager or were any kind of kid, your parents probably did a few things that drove you crazy....probably still are.

I just got that.........see I'm nineteen, I'm self consious to an extreme so I don't go out much.......admitedly, I spend a lot of my time playing video games but I would go out more and socialize if there was actually anything to do where I live, but there isn't....at least, not for me... the only thing in this place is the skate park and I'm not really interested in skateboarding.

I've beent trying to find a job but so far, no luck........speaking of which, have you ever tried to find a job.......looked up all the different places, checked the job centre and everything, and then have your parents turn around and say that the only reason you're unemployed is because you're not really trying?

I get that a lot...I'll admit that it infuriates me to the point I want to punch a wall or somthing.
They honestly think that all I do every day is sit and play games all day long.

I guess I just wish I could move out and get on with my life.. but I'd need a job to be able to afford it.......typical.

You know, I understand that there is a lot wrong with me.... but I also know that A lot of my confidence would grow if my mother said to me , just once "I know that you'll be able to make it on your own, I'm proud of you"

Thats a long ways away from "I love you, but you're a spoiled little bastard who hasn't grown up since the day he was sixteen".........but hey; all I can do is dream right?